One big change that happened somewhere along turning 23 is I don’t feel afraid (yet) of exploring whatever awaits me after college. I am not scared of landing a first job in a totally unexpected field. (I just hope it won’t take too long of a time getting one) I am not dreading of taking the longer route. Or making mistakes. Many of them, actually. It’s dawning on me that as long as I have an honest heart with a diligent spirit, I would learn and grow wherever I am put. So, I am more than ready to take those mistakes, step into wrong directions and find my way through. And most importantly, I won’t lose sight of what matters the most.
“You could say that among the most powerful of human experiences is to give or to receive forgiveness. Much of Jesus’ teaching is directly or indirectly about this mystery of forgiveness, God breaking God’s own rules. That’s not surprising, because forgiveness is probably the only human action that reveals three goodnesses simultaneously! When we forgive, we choose the goodness of the other over their faults; we experience God’s goodness flowing through ourselves; and we experience our own goodness in a way that almost surprises us. This is an awesome coming together of one flow of power, both human and divine at the same time. If you don’t get forgiveness, you’re missing the whole mystery of God. You are still living in a world of meritocracy, of quid-pro-quo thinking, a world of performance and behavior at which none of us succeed, if we are honest. Forgiveness is the great thawing of all logic, reason, and worthiness, and the primary way we move from the economy of merit to the economy of grace. Forgiveness is a collapsing into the mystery of God as totally unearned love, unmerited grace. It is the final surrender to the humility and power of a Divine Love and a Divine Lover.”—Richard Rohr (via azspot)
After talking with my professors about my future : Shoot. I do need a back-up plan other than going to grad schools. But he genuinely cares. A PULITZER WINNER CARES FOR ME: FRANKEL FOR LIFE <3
After talking with my parents about my future : They want me to go work at Samsung as a back-up plan. Shoot me in the head right now.
After talking with a Ph.D Journalism student/Korean reporter about my future :Shoot. Maybe I really should move back and write there.
After talking with Hyunz about my future : WHY YOU LAUGHING AT ME SON?!?!?!
After talking with Jesus about my future. : I am beyond unsure but/so I will wait on you. I really don’t have the slightest clue where to even start. But I know it’s going to be a marathon and not a sprint. So walk with me. Guide my steps. Calm me down when I start to lose it. Knock me in the head when it’s necessary - hope that won’t be too often.
Mr. Torres:Leviticus: Thou shall not lie with a man as one lies with a female, it is an abomination
Callie:Oh, don't do that daddy! Don't quote the bible at me!
Mr. Torres:The outcry of Sodom and Gomorrah is great, and the sin is exceedingly grave.
Callie:Jesus: A new commandment that I give unto you, that you love one another.
Mr. Torres:Romans: but we know that laws-
Callie:Jesus: he, who is without sin among you, let him cast the first stone...
Mr. Torres:So you admit it's a sin?
Callie:Blessed are the merciful for they shall obtain mercy! Jesus: blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God! Jesus: blessed are those who have been persecuted for righteousness sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven! Jesus is my savior daddy, not you! And Jesus would be ashamed of you for judging me! He would be ashamed of you for turning your back on me. He would be ashamed.
“Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.”—Steve Jobs (via julie-park)
It’s funny how no one talks about it but everyone knows about it. And once someone musters up the courage to start off the conversation, everything comes out. Then you realize people were thinking about it all along, just not out loud.
I don’t want to be someone who can’t read between the lines; who see things strictly on a surface level; whose world is colored monotone. I want an ever-expanding perspective and an equally limitless heart, full of compassion and love.
Out of many reasons it feels surreal to have you so close in my life, your ability to balance the slanted perspective I have on myself, people, and God so effortlessly has to be number one.
Thank you for believing and loving so wholeheartedly in who I am and who I can be.